Schizophrenic Loner – different yet same

It’s a bizarre thing you might say that someone could believe a reality that isn’t real and really live it, you might be right but the bizarre thing so a schizophrenic Loner that now has working medicine is that all day everyday is different because reality has returned from delusional hallucinating but it’s the same, everything that is the same is now different.

Schizophrenic Loner coming to terms

Prehaps I should have listened all them years ago  when I believed a dead princess had access to my brain and could use satellite technology to talk to me. But, no I couldn’t conceive of the notion that I was possibly schizophrenic. No not me, I rationalized that they meant it was possible told myself I would be fine about a year after this notion formed. It’s now seven years after the notion formed and man do I wish I had listened. I’ve humiliated myself to everyone and well nobody because nobody reads my tweets but everyone because there’s now two years of nobody listening.

Schizophrenia

Right so now I’ve moved on seven years and the delusion and hallucination has formed itself into everything about me and I’ve had medication that makes me see reality, they say everyone deserves a second chance right, does chance at the real world instead of only one I can see count? Regardless of the unlikable person my illness had made me because a symptom is social isolation and I pushed everybody away.

Thinking of putting a diary here, one that carries my journey a diary like I first planned for this site but of a different sort. You know a place for a not very interesting person to babble. Prehaps taking my baby steps to recovery building something new.

Schizophrenic Loner.

After coming to terms with being schizophrenic I read a pamphlet and began my quest looking for help and support in actually knowing what schizophrenia is, reading the symptoms it is clear I went seven years or more undiagnosed if only I had read about it sooner.